Mask

Fear flickered quickly
She smiled and a mask appeared
"My cancer is back"

For any friends reading this, this isn't about me. This is about a woman I spoke with at my Relay For Life training today. She was so positive and upbeat when talking about beating cancer. But as she told me about a new mass they found, her face changed momentarily. It was subtle yet profound. The smile she wore dropped a bit then came back with full force.

I have smiled that smile before. You are wigging out, but you don't want to see the "you're doomed" face from the other person, so you pump up the volume in your own face - a mask goes up. It's self defense as well as an act of sparing the person you are telling the bad news to.

My Friends

My friends pray for me.
When I am the most afraid,
We petition God.

Afraid and Angry

I cry out to Jesus.
Consuming anger and fear
Follow me today.

Hiding in the Bathroom

Trembling little friend,
Afraid of the loud thunder,
Hides in the bathroom.

Changes

Changes on the way.
What will happen to me when
These things come to pass?

Snake's Stranglehold

A snake's stranglehold:
Fear chokes me . . . hisses at me . . .
Feasts on my panic.